I just can’t find it.
Somewhere – I’ve seen it quite recently – is a drawing I did on the edge of St Helen’s Woods.
It was a lovely spring day so I’d taken a less-committed art class away from school, carrying boards and paper across an old trackway to the edge of the valley. On my drawing I made a few notes: that a Nightingale was singing down in below and that a radioactive cloud was drifting across Europe from a fire at a nuclear power station in Russia.
I’d like to find that drawing again to check the date – late April, early May 1986 – to confirm where it fits in the disastrous timeline.
It wasn’t in Russia, but on the Ukraine/Belarus border in a place that everyone now knows.
A few years ago there began to be published haunting winter images of the abandoned support town, Pripyat. And then, we were standing on a bleak hillside at Abyaneh in Iran, with one of our group telling how he’d recently visited the Exclusion Zone; it was quite simple: Easyjet to Kiev, Novotel, then pick up a tour from Solo East outside McDonald’s.
Discussion of the accident came to a halt when another member of the group interjected, “I was there!” Though now a New Yorker, he’d grown up in Kiev. Aged eighteen, he was waiting one morning for the bus to work but the bus didn’t arrive. In fact all the city’s buses had vanished; no-one knew why.
Neither the citizens of Kiev nor the inhabitants of Pripyat nor those of nearby Chernobyl nor of two hundred little villages in the area were told anything. Nor were the firemen who rushed to the scene, many of whom, by the time I’d done my drawing in the sunshine, were already dying of radiation sickness.
Probably, depending on the date of that drawing, but probably by that time thousands of people had been evacuated from the area – in those missing buses.
There were those who’d come from all over the Soviet Union to work at the forward-looking power plant – four reactors already generating electricity and another in construction – and there were those who’d been born and bred in the villages but now faced permanent exile.
When, last year, I finally arrived in Pripyat it was oddly familiar – partly from the many eerie photographs and drone films disseminated in recent years but also from Science Not-Quite-Fiction post-apocalyptic scenarios in films and novels.
This wrecked department store resembled a scene from J G Ballard’s “Kingdom Come”. And then there’s Tarkovsky’s uncannily prescient “Stalker” – filmed in 1979. I’ve referred to it in other posts.
And “In Ruins” by Colin Woodward, which traces the role of crumbling, abandoned dwellings and monuments in the European imagination. From childhood I’ve enjoyed exploring such places, the more overgrown the better.
Now it’s a favourite with photographers, who want to exploit the ready-made poignancy, especially when it’s overloaded with references to childhood.
In Pripyat, on that cool, still autumn afternoon, there was no sound and no movement save for the tap of dry leaves as they dropped to the floor. A bit like when you’re high in the mountains or out in the desert where nothing much has happened for centuries till one rock rolls down, comes to a stop, silence resumes.
Some of the housing blocks don’t look in much worse shape than those still inhabited in city suburbs, though they sport no post-Soviet satellite antennae or aircon units.
Bit by bit, the poplars planted in bygone avenues have drifted their offspring into tarmac joints and paving cracks, while moss and leaf litter have crept across the streets.
The football pitch, starting as grass, has presented colonising trees with no obstacles.
Cinema entrance
I’ve tended to think of Pripyat as being a modern-day Pompeii – and began to wonder whether the mysterious Concrete Corpse sprawled, so like one of Vesuvius’ victims,across the shingle at Dengemarsh, might be angled at the Dungeness power plant in response to the Chernobyl disaster.
People ask me whether I find some consolation in the city’s return to a vegetational embrace.